Trying to Pay the Bills

The financial situation is insanely dire. The checking account is in the negatives, one of the credit cards I have available had its limit reduced from $6500 to $450 after the attempt to make a payment on the balance failed; due to my spouse’s emptying of the account. None of the credit cards I have in my wallet are usable, and my debit card won’t let me pull against an account in the negatives. The only cards with an available balance are locked in the safe and only my spouse has the codes. I have no way to pay for food or fuel.

I have made another attempt to contact our children, but I am growing convinced that my spouse has orchestrated an attempt to erase me from their lives, or at least erase themselves from mine. Every attempt to contact them leaves me a sobbing mess.

I am now sleeping less than ever. I already had some insomniac tendencies, but now I am finding that I am only getting 2-4 hours of sleep at a time. I keep reliving everything even in my sleep and I wake up full of anxiety and simply cry.

The possibility of there being $3k in cash in the safe is agonizing. I have made an attempt to contact Cannon to get a copy of the master code for our safe. I do not know how long that will take, so I have reported some of our cards lost/stolen in order to get replacements.

I just need to be able to pay the bills…